Moral Fiber

"Moral fiber. So, what is moral fiber? It’s funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically being a fucking boy scout. But lately I’ve been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber’s about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn’t so clean. You know what? It doesn’t matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That’s what moral fiber’s all about." - The Girl Next Door
Sun Apr 5

So how do you cure this? When you have a relationship with someone, be it friend or loved one, how do you cure it? That constant anxious feeling, its the love hate thing. You love them to death which makes you focus on their every move. I know some of you may be saying, what the hell is she talking about? I’m purposely trying to be vague, don’t worry. I think about it, i react, and not until later do i rationalize things. That’s the bad thing. I’m not yet able to think about both sides before I react and get upset. I see it with alot of people. They freak out at the smallest of things, and their loved one may think ” What the hell, what gives you the right to do that?” Really though, I think that is true love. Only someone who will watch you like a hawk and focus on your every thought, really loves you. ON the other hand that could be stalkerish, but im not talking about that kind of thing. I love this person, I will always love this person, but I can’t yet cure it. Is it a bad thing? I dont know. Maybe i’m just a very sensitive person, or maybe its cause i care. I don’t think caring too much is a bad thing.